I have typed this letter in hope that it will reach anyone who considers themselves to be the term above. I'm just a normal, everyday guy from the Midwest with something he wants to say. That's about as normal as you can get. I'm also a guy who consistently watched pornography between the ages of 12 and 27 and briefly relapsing at 28. Like thousands of people, if not millions, I've seen what your "line of work" is capable of before I could even understand what was going on. That being said, I'm reaching to the part of you that's a real person. What I have to tell you is probably nothing you'd want to hear, but I only ask for a little of your time to read this letter because it's for you. I genuinely hope you have time to spare because I believe this is important.
What I used to see at the time were people who had sex 24/7 and loved every bit of it. If by chance I didn't see you lying on your back or in some contortionist-like position on screen devouring bodily fluids, you were still dressed provocatively on a tv show or movie with animalistic sex in your eyes. Even today I witness you telling us how many penises have penetrated every opening you had to offer while awaiting more. I saw that you were ready and willing to do whatever you were told and you not only complied, you graciously begged for more. You never complained and you always had a pleasurable smile across your face. I envisioned my future girlfriend to be just like you when it came to having sex. After all, it was my first introduction to what sex was supposed to be like all the time. That was what I saw in you and it seemed so convincing with every shout, scream, and obscene word you emitted. I'm sure your current overzealous fans have the same thing in mind as I once did. That is what seemed to only exist when looking at you. That was the illusion that I was led to believe.
Something in me changed as I got older. By 16, I was very conflicted when I saw the things you were willing to do; things that I didn't even think were done by people. I sometimes ask myself "how could someone as pretty as this do something like that" and never figuring out the answer. Again, I felt conflicted, especially since it seemed like it was supposed to be a normal thing for a guy to like porn. Nevertheless, I decided that I wanted to stop watching the things you do. There was no real reason why, but I felt it was time to move onto something else other than watching you do and say outrageous things. While trying to attempt other things, in the back of my mind I couldn't help to see the images of the things you did on screen. Before long, I was right back into my old habits in seeing what you were up to. This was the start of the "yo-yo" effect between myself and watching you perform your duties in porn that would last for over a decade more.
After countless attempts of swearing off porn and nearly destroying close relationships, I seemed to finally get through this stigma that plagued me. In addition to that, I started reading stories about others either in your current position or tried to find a life after porn. What I found had me in complete disbelief and didn't have words to express how I felt. Now, I'm not going to pretend that I know the reasons why you have chosen to become a porn star. Your reasons are your own and you're entitled to them. The one thing I've learned this past year is that you are a person first and foremost. The issue is the porn company or companies you work for don't want us to know that. They want you be nothing more than a fun toy to us just as much as you are to them. That is the reality behind the alleged fame and fortune that was promised to you.
The image porn companies have you portray helps to trivialize infidelity, under aged sex, prostitution, rape, incest, and humiliation among many other things. It's the only thing consumers of porn take away from the scenes you perform in and desensitizing people into thinking that those things are what qualifies as sexy. I was exposed to that at a young age just like many others and possibly you as well. I hope that the human being that you really are takes these words into account. You have the rights to do what you want and the government has seen to that. Once upon a time, we also had the right of owning another human being as property. In a sense that is what you are to the people you work for: property or a product.
As much as people argue about rights and consent of what you do, porn is still very much linked to illegal sex facilitation. The only difference between what you do and street walkers is that the government is taking their cut from one and not the other. As long as they get their percentage everything is OK, but since when has the government ever got this right? It's the act of turning something that is one of our greatest treasures and turning it into something no different than taxed merchandise on store shelves. The scenes that you perform in are instruction manuals to sexual degradation in several forms: the worst of which is child porn and sex trafficking. For all you know, your porn scenes are being used as training videos for girls trapped in sex slavery. Whether you want to believe it or not this what your current legacy is contributing to. When you are preparing to have sex on camera, I want you to pay attention when you stare into the lens as you're being recorded. The cameraman is the first to watch and it doesn't stop there. There just may be a little boy or girl watching you, too. Think of the young boy who tries to emulate what's being done to you and ends up raping someone. Think of the little girl who wants to be a doctor, but instead thinks being like you is much easier to be rich and happy. Think of someone in your family watched you in camera. Just take time and think because it's not just about you. There's so many of us that share this planet and you really don't know just how powerful an influence you might have.
If you decided to take the time to read this I thank you. I may be ignored by many others that work in porn and that's to be expected. As I said before, this is me coming to you as a person. Not a sex object, not a whore, or whatever. Many others are quick to place blame on you, but I don't. I don't blame you for what the porn industry is doing to keep their money making gears greased. You're just a pawn in their game just like the consumers. If this reaches to the real person you are then I've served my purpose. The bottom line is as a person, you are worth more than anything pornography has to offer you. They are always looking for a fresh new face to lure in with a promise of fame until they get used up and then replaced with someone else. Just think about that. It's not worth the humanity inside of you. It never was. The only way things will be different is if people are brave enough to support change in the world. We are here to help each other, not just ourselves. The world is much bigger than what you see. Again I want to thank you for taking the time to read my letter. You don't know how important it is for me that you have. I wish you an immeasurable life in the future no matter where it leads.
Sincerely,
Kyle (RisenAgainstTheBeast)
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